Impatience
I like spoilers.
I frequently get involved in television shows that are finished, or nearly there and get an idea of where relationships end up or at least where they currently lie when I begin watching a show so that I know whether or not it’s safe to get attached to certain characters.
I try, when possible, to retrieve set lists of upcoming concerts I will attend so I know if they’re going to play my favourite song, when we’re nearing the end of the show and whether or not they’re going to pop into the crowd for a tune or two.
Not knowing how things will turn out makes me uncomfortable, edgy.
So my restlessness with life, isn’t so much a desire for things to be over, or even a fear of what will come it’s the discomfort of not KNOWING. Not being able to see beyond the bend, not being able to plan for what’s ahead that makes me crazy. I need a sneak peek, A vague idea of what’s to come.
A life spoiler.
Where can I look? Who can I ask? Where’s the advance information on my life?
Anyone?
